I find myself writing about life again and again.. Ironically its not the zest for life.
Sometimes all that is left after a lifetime of misery and struggle, might just be a disillusionment. Time and again, endless generations have gone through and realised the same thing. But we think, or like to think our's might be different somehow. Even when the endless meaninglessness, the black nothingness stares in our face, we like to believe there is no elephant in the room.
But then, that realisation is one step short of leading a happy life. After all, it doesnt matter. We might as well just live happy when we are around. Suddenly, everything seems so trivial. Life isn't complex after all. You survive, you reproduce, you make sure they survive to reproduce. That's it in a nutshell. Suddenly wars seems to make the same sense as weddings. Not to misunderstand me.. I am not a violent person, I dont believe in hurting others, but nor do I believe in weddings.
Life doesnt have meanings.. I realise. Do I believe in talking to others, having fun ? Yes.. I do. That makes me not think about the meaninglessness, the nothingness. I dont care if it means nothing. All that matters is.. I accept that meaninglessness. In a way I am happy about it. No need to worry about consequences. Its like watching an action movie at the cinemas. We are so engrossed, we feel at the edge of the seat. We feel disturbed when the protagonist is trapped. The visuals are upsetting. But at such times, what is comforting is these things will soon be over. The tensions, the outcomes doesn't have to carry over to outside later. Its all over in that two hours. Whatever happens in that movie, in the story.. or how feel about it, is inconsequential.. to almost nothing. Ponderings over the story is different. I mean no real threat is left of it.
Similary life is now, you live it you die. I dont have to worry about the consequences. No god to judge me later. Its nothingness, non-existence after this. Death is certain and that is comforting.
Life is simple, Explanation is complex. Acceptance is simple, Dissection is complex.
But then, that realisation is one step short of leading a happy life. After all, it doesnt matter. We might as well just live happy when we are around. Suddenly, everything seems so trivial. Life isn't complex after all. You survive, you reproduce, you make sure they survive to reproduce. That's it in a nutshell. Suddenly wars seems to make the same sense as weddings. Not to misunderstand me.. I am not a violent person, I dont believe in hurting others, but nor do I believe in weddings.
Life doesnt have meanings.. I realise. Do I believe in talking to others, having fun ? Yes.. I do. That makes me not think about the meaninglessness, the nothingness. I dont care if it means nothing. All that matters is.. I accept that meaninglessness. In a way I am happy about it. No need to worry about consequences. Its like watching an action movie at the cinemas. We are so engrossed, we feel at the edge of the seat. We feel disturbed when the protagonist is trapped. The visuals are upsetting. But at such times, what is comforting is these things will soon be over. The tensions, the outcomes doesn't have to carry over to outside later. Its all over in that two hours. Whatever happens in that movie, in the story.. or how feel about it, is inconsequential.. to almost nothing. Ponderings over the story is different. I mean no real threat is left of it.
Similary life is now, you live it you die. I dont have to worry about the consequences. No god to judge me later. Its nothingness, non-existence after this. Death is certain and that is comforting.
Life is simple, Explanation is complex. Acceptance is simple, Dissection is complex.
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